Just learning to pray and seek God earnestly. Learning to die to my flesh, my thoughts, my emotions, for these things are subjected MY! What are your thoughts God, your Emotions God. I want to be like you walking in your image in your instructions, under your guidance. God teach me how to get there, How can I walk in your prosperity, so the people I connect with can lock on and grab hold to it. God we need true worshipers, praise leaders, intercessors, standing in need of the lost souls.
This walk with God is not easy, but ITS SO WORTH IT. He is so awesome. Just keeping you here is a Miracle and Grace in itself. Thank you God.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Where Have I been?
Where have I been these past two months? Seems as though I lost focus on what I set my heart and mind out to do.
I believe God has really been dealing with me and increasing my understanding just to get to know Him more, in all retrospect He has been teaching me HUMILITY. In teaching me that He has begun to break me in ways that I thought I was already broken.
But, to my surprise I was not broken enough.
What is Humility? According to google, Humility is a deposition to be humbled.
What does the Word say about Humility? Proverbs 15:33- The fear of the Lord is the instruction of Wisdom, before honor is Humility.
I had to look at my recent experiences in a way of me not fearing the things God was showing me and telling me. I was acting rebellious and acting as though I did not hear or see God. But the hard thing through it all was, when I wanted God to hear me and show himself to me, it was as though He turned His ear and face from me. Showing me, that if I wanted His presence bad enough then I wouldn't stop seeking Him no matter how I felt. For my God is a Jealous God. All the while He was trying and wanting to converse with me, but I wasn't listening. When I wanted to listen, no words were being said, the feeling, the anxiety I felt. God just hear me and answer my prayer. But, what prayer was a I praying? Regardless of my situation, was I praying for my situation or for my repentance, for my deliverance, for my ears to be open, for my knees to become broken? NO I was praying for my situation.
God revealed unto my natural Father, HUMILITY! God wants to teach me Humility before He can honor me. I need to Fear the One and Truly Living God, so I can and will become Humbled.
I believe God has really been dealing with me and increasing my understanding just to get to know Him more, in all retrospect He has been teaching me HUMILITY. In teaching me that He has begun to break me in ways that I thought I was already broken.
But, to my surprise I was not broken enough.
What is Humility? According to google, Humility is a deposition to be humbled.
What does the Word say about Humility? Proverbs 15:33- The fear of the Lord is the instruction of Wisdom, before honor is Humility.
I had to look at my recent experiences in a way of me not fearing the things God was showing me and telling me. I was acting rebellious and acting as though I did not hear or see God. But the hard thing through it all was, when I wanted God to hear me and show himself to me, it was as though He turned His ear and face from me. Showing me, that if I wanted His presence bad enough then I wouldn't stop seeking Him no matter how I felt. For my God is a Jealous God. All the while He was trying and wanting to converse with me, but I wasn't listening. When I wanted to listen, no words were being said, the feeling, the anxiety I felt. God just hear me and answer my prayer. But, what prayer was a I praying? Regardless of my situation, was I praying for my situation or for my repentance, for my deliverance, for my ears to be open, for my knees to become broken? NO I was praying for my situation.
God revealed unto my natural Father, HUMILITY! God wants to teach me Humility before He can honor me. I need to Fear the One and Truly Living God, so I can and will become Humbled.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
Doors
The message (We taught yesterday, that the old nature works to hinder us from the promises of God. Jacob Wrestled with God til his name was changed, meaning his nature was changed he refused to let the angel go till he blessed him. Its our turn to wrestle so we can receive all God promises. read Gen 32:22-28. Also the Prophetic Word on yesterday was expect new doors to be open was released that doors would be opened)(Pastor Howard, New Beginners Church, June 2010) was taught that doors would be opened. How many need doors opened in their lives? I speak for myself, I have been on an uphill battle in building my relationship with God and being consistent with it. I have become broken, I've even gotten wounded, but God is still in the mist of proving. He is proving that I have to understand that He is all that I need and no man can ever intercede with the doors He wants to open for me. Gosh, I broke out in a little flow right there. (haha). I am learning, I am learning to have faith and believe, I'm learning that we as people prolong what God wants to do for us, due to the decisions we make. Such decisions of not giving God the glory on a consistent basis can stop breakthroughs from happening. It takes time, but I'm learning that time is worth it. During the timing process, I really want to be humbled and broken to the point where I don't have to keep going through that same battle. Again, with that said you have to be careful of when asking to be humbled and broken, because the TRUE YOU will be revealed and the things you thought you had overcome will come back and test your true self.
Some situations you can not take lightly in life, when it comes to you jeopardizing your stance with God, just to have a voice in the world, I think that is a situation where you need to become violent and really seek God so that you want loose who you are and the things He has called you to be when finding a place in the Natural. I my self have fallen victim to doing that I have stopped relying on God to do things and open the right avenues for me when it came to finding my way in the Natural, I started to take on situations and relationships with people and places where I was becoming lose and putting my own self in bondage, and in the process I never looked to God to get me out, until the waters got to high. We have the expectation that God will just pull us out, and I know He will but why pull us out of the High Waters we created only to find ourselves back in them next week. God will sometimes let the water drain from under us slowly, so we can know and learn that He is the only way out in a drowning situation.
Psalms 16:8- I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
Psalms 9:9-10- The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. Those who know your name will trust in you, for you , Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.
I tend to continue on this discussion, expanding scriptures and getting in the favor of the Lord.
Oh gracious God, I ask that you give us that fight, a fight that we will wrestle with you and become violent within our spirit man so that you may bless us, so that you may open doors, open windows, open our minds to receive your teachings, to receive your fruit, to receive your blessing and miracles O God, what man says is impossible God you make it Possible. God I ask that you continue to work on my heart and the hearts of those that are reading this and taking heed to it. I repent for the things that are in me that are not of you, I ask that you continue to get those things that are not like you out of me so that I can receive that Isaac blessings. We have to die to flesh daily, we have to surround and dive into your word daily God. In the name of Jesus, Amen.
Some situations you can not take lightly in life, when it comes to you jeopardizing your stance with God, just to have a voice in the world, I think that is a situation where you need to become violent and really seek God so that you want loose who you are and the things He has called you to be when finding a place in the Natural. I my self have fallen victim to doing that I have stopped relying on God to do things and open the right avenues for me when it came to finding my way in the Natural, I started to take on situations and relationships with people and places where I was becoming lose and putting my own self in bondage, and in the process I never looked to God to get me out, until the waters got to high. We have the expectation that God will just pull us out, and I know He will but why pull us out of the High Waters we created only to find ourselves back in them next week. God will sometimes let the water drain from under us slowly, so we can know and learn that He is the only way out in a drowning situation.
Psalms 16:8- I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
Psalms 9:9-10- The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. Those who know your name will trust in you, for you , Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.
I tend to continue on this discussion, expanding scriptures and getting in the favor of the Lord.
Oh gracious God, I ask that you give us that fight, a fight that we will wrestle with you and become violent within our spirit man so that you may bless us, so that you may open doors, open windows, open our minds to receive your teachings, to receive your fruit, to receive your blessing and miracles O God, what man says is impossible God you make it Possible. God I ask that you continue to work on my heart and the hearts of those that are reading this and taking heed to it. I repent for the things that are in me that are not of you, I ask that you continue to get those things that are not like you out of me so that I can receive that Isaac blessings. We have to die to flesh daily, we have to surround and dive into your word daily God. In the name of Jesus, Amen.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Implused Decisions, Emotional Words
Decisions, decisions, decisions, words, words, words! These things control the paths we are on in our everyday life. How many of us have said things we wish we did not say or did things we wish we never did? But we have said and we have done it. What now? Consequences happen, the consequences of the words we stated happen, the consequences of the decisions we made happen. We may not see it now, but boy does it show up later on.
Do you ever wonder can those consequences be stopped? I definitely wonder that all the time. Naturally when are doing things or saying things we are coming from an impulse or a emotion and those things are said and those things are said. Deg, why did I say that or why did I do that, is the very thing we think after its done. In saying this, the only time we question a decision or choice of words, majority of the time it was not GOOD choice/decision. There was negativity behind, going back and forth was, and most of all confusion. It is important to know God is not the author of confusion.
What's important is taking the things we are learning through our reading and praying and putting it into practice. To know that we are equipped enough to apply our reading and praying into our natural everyday setting, because that is what we are fighting everyday. I want to be able to pray and recall a scripture when I am faced with a decision where I know it can go this way, yet it can go that way. I want to be able to quote 'God let my words be your words and not my emotions talking' before I say something.
Becoming a diligent reader in the Word, and a continuous prayer worry is a decision and choice itself. But, it is so easier to make other decisions and choices. How come we can't make a decision to become prayer warriors and seekers after God? I say this with me in mind, I struggle with getting up at times and devoting time to God, knowing I devote time to everything else. But everything else has not got me where I am today, whether I am a mess, whether I've struggled to get here, the important thing is God still got me here and He is still with me.
Decisions, decisions, words, words! Lets make the decision to have a heart after God, lets say words that resemble Joy and Praise, and Worship. Call out to the Father and give thanks.
That thou turnest thy spirit against God, and lettest such words go out of thy mouth? Job 15:13; If thou canst answer me, set thy words in order before me, stand up. Job 33:5
Hallelujah God, I repent God for the things I have done today, that were not of you, I repent for my thoughts that were not of you God. I ask that you convict me and set things before me to stop my emotions from affecting decisions that I make. For some decisions take time, some choices take time, and patience is what I long for God and I want you to do it, and not me God. I want your words to flow through me and not my own, for that way I know that I'm doing the things I am suppose to be doing and not what I want to do. For when my heart is heavy and things are not going one's way, allow your presences to come in and create a calming atmosphere to help assure that we are in your Hands and not mans. Come in the mist of thine Storm, and shake and break us, teach us God, build us up God to be your vessels so that we can teach those who are longing for you all about you. God help us to make the right decisions and say the right things. In the name of Jesus, Amen.
Do you ever wonder can those consequences be stopped? I definitely wonder that all the time. Naturally when are doing things or saying things we are coming from an impulse or a emotion and those things are said and those things are said. Deg, why did I say that or why did I do that, is the very thing we think after its done. In saying this, the only time we question a decision or choice of words, majority of the time it was not GOOD choice/decision. There was negativity behind, going back and forth was, and most of all confusion. It is important to know God is not the author of confusion.
What's important is taking the things we are learning through our reading and praying and putting it into practice. To know that we are equipped enough to apply our reading and praying into our natural everyday setting, because that is what we are fighting everyday. I want to be able to pray and recall a scripture when I am faced with a decision where I know it can go this way, yet it can go that way. I want to be able to quote 'God let my words be your words and not my emotions talking' before I say something.
Becoming a diligent reader in the Word, and a continuous prayer worry is a decision and choice itself. But, it is so easier to make other decisions and choices. How come we can't make a decision to become prayer warriors and seekers after God? I say this with me in mind, I struggle with getting up at times and devoting time to God, knowing I devote time to everything else. But everything else has not got me where I am today, whether I am a mess, whether I've struggled to get here, the important thing is God still got me here and He is still with me.
Decisions, decisions, words, words! Lets make the decision to have a heart after God, lets say words that resemble Joy and Praise, and Worship. Call out to the Father and give thanks.
That thou turnest thy spirit against God, and lettest such words go out of thy mouth? Job 15:13; If thou canst answer me, set thy words in order before me, stand up. Job 33:5
Hallelujah God, I repent God for the things I have done today, that were not of you, I repent for my thoughts that were not of you God. I ask that you convict me and set things before me to stop my emotions from affecting decisions that I make. For some decisions take time, some choices take time, and patience is what I long for God and I want you to do it, and not me God. I want your words to flow through me and not my own, for that way I know that I'm doing the things I am suppose to be doing and not what I want to do. For when my heart is heavy and things are not going one's way, allow your presences to come in and create a calming atmosphere to help assure that we are in your Hands and not mans. Come in the mist of thine Storm, and shake and break us, teach us God, build us up God to be your vessels so that we can teach those who are longing for you all about you. God help us to make the right decisions and say the right things. In the name of Jesus, Amen.
Praying
Oh how the praying without ceasing is very needed. Awake and pondering early this morning, thinking about how its so easy to fall to the distractions of this world. The praying without ceasing is needed not just for ourselves, but for individuals all around. You never know what the person beside you is going through. We have to pray and we have to uplift and support one another especially in the Walk with God.
The flesh is a tough and rough layer of our MindSet to deal with, in reality and from experience I now understand why its said You have to die to your flesh daily. The support of fellow prayer warriors are needed just because of that.
We all deal with something everyday, but how does one stay strong when your back is against the wall? Honestly when your back is against the wall, that means you have nothing left to loose, so why not pray and just Trust God. When you get to that point that means that break through is within hands reach, all you have to do is Trust and pray and wait for it to happen. Personally I know its easier said than done, but we sometimes put ourselves in these uneasy situations and when SELF lets you down, thats when we ask God to get us out. But, God never intended for things to be Hard, but the Walk with God is not going to be easy as well. Gosh, so many things can be said about this and it can go alot of different ways, questions still arise to me personally of when you confess and ask God to forgive and save you from the things you fall victim to, why do you STILL fall victim to it? Man the flesh is weak, and when the enemy is at work, boy is he at work, and if my/your spirit man is not strong Victim again you will fall.
I learned something from a message that was spoken at church one day. "Discouragement comes when you try to do it yourself, when you let God do it Deliverance comes" When we try to fight flesh with flesh, then yes we are looking to be a victim. But, when you fight Spirit with Flesh, and your Spirit man is determine to win this battle, boy the Victory that comes from it makes you FEEL GREAT and you can't help to rejoice. Oh, how I can not wait to be able to defeat the things that I still fall victim to.
God will make things known in prayer;
Daniel 9:20-22. And whiles I was speaking, and praying, and confessing my sin and the sin of my people Israel, and presenting my supplication before the LORD my God for the holy mountain of my God. Yea, whiles I was speaking in prayer, even the man Gabriel, whom I had seen in the vision at the beginning, being caused to fly swiftly, touched me about the time of the evening oblation. And he informed me, and talked with me, and said, O Daniel, I am now come forth to give thee skill and understanding
I pray God that you send those prayer warriors, that support system for people that long for it, that those friendships be made in where if you are falling they can help to build you up. That relationships will be made with significant others where God is the source and the provider, in which they can go to you God in prayer and supplication and ask for your guidance. Confessing and repenting daily is something our hearts need, practicing and growing is what our minds need. Change God, renewing God, forgiveness God, we need it we need your Love we need your power, we need your restoration and mercy to fall upon us. God you are worthy of all the praise and glory and I give that to you God, even when I don't feel like confessing it and speaking it, I give it to you God. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.
The flesh is a tough and rough layer of our MindSet to deal with, in reality and from experience I now understand why its said You have to die to your flesh daily. The support of fellow prayer warriors are needed just because of that.
We all deal with something everyday, but how does one stay strong when your back is against the wall? Honestly when your back is against the wall, that means you have nothing left to loose, so why not pray and just Trust God. When you get to that point that means that break through is within hands reach, all you have to do is Trust and pray and wait for it to happen. Personally I know its easier said than done, but we sometimes put ourselves in these uneasy situations and when SELF lets you down, thats when we ask God to get us out. But, God never intended for things to be Hard, but the Walk with God is not going to be easy as well. Gosh, so many things can be said about this and it can go alot of different ways, questions still arise to me personally of when you confess and ask God to forgive and save you from the things you fall victim to, why do you STILL fall victim to it? Man the flesh is weak, and when the enemy is at work, boy is he at work, and if my/your spirit man is not strong Victim again you will fall.
I learned something from a message that was spoken at church one day. "Discouragement comes when you try to do it yourself, when you let God do it Deliverance comes" When we try to fight flesh with flesh, then yes we are looking to be a victim. But, when you fight Spirit with Flesh, and your Spirit man is determine to win this battle, boy the Victory that comes from it makes you FEEL GREAT and you can't help to rejoice. Oh, how I can not wait to be able to defeat the things that I still fall victim to.
God will make things known in prayer;
Daniel 9:20-22. And whiles I was speaking, and praying, and confessing my sin and the sin of my people Israel, and presenting my supplication before the LORD my God for the holy mountain of my God. Yea, whiles I was speaking in prayer, even the man Gabriel, whom I had seen in the vision at the beginning, being caused to fly swiftly, touched me about the time of the evening oblation. And he informed me, and talked with me, and said, O Daniel, I am now come forth to give thee skill and understanding
I pray God that you send those prayer warriors, that support system for people that long for it, that those friendships be made in where if you are falling they can help to build you up. That relationships will be made with significant others where God is the source and the provider, in which they can go to you God in prayer and supplication and ask for your guidance. Confessing and repenting daily is something our hearts need, practicing and growing is what our minds need. Change God, renewing God, forgiveness God, we need it we need your Love we need your power, we need your restoration and mercy to fall upon us. God you are worthy of all the praise and glory and I give that to you God, even when I don't feel like confessing it and speaking it, I give it to you God. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Something new
How does God speak to you? Does God speak to you through song, through people, through dreams/visions? God has a way of speaking to people in the way people want God to speak to them. Something such as this (blogging) is something new to me. But, I felt God was speaking to me to do this, just to simply speak to others, this not only gives me the opportunity to relate to people, but also be used by God and let Him heal me and deliver me as well.
How do I start? What shall we talk about? I don't know, and I'm not quite sure, but whatever God has in store I'm sure He will speak to me soon.
I pray that this opportunity opens doors, opens windows, opens hearts, not only to receive and hear, but also to act and do, and let God come in and restore brokenness, heartaches, rejection, depression, and wounded souls. I pray God shows up and shows out, that His Word be carried to and fro, to the beginning and never reaching an end, because we as people need your Word through and through. God I ask you to touch hearts, to touch minds, and to touch the spiritual man in people, and that you give us a heart after you God. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.
How do I start? What shall we talk about? I don't know, and I'm not quite sure, but whatever God has in store I'm sure He will speak to me soon.
I pray that this opportunity opens doors, opens windows, opens hearts, not only to receive and hear, but also to act and do, and let God come in and restore brokenness, heartaches, rejection, depression, and wounded souls. I pray God shows up and shows out, that His Word be carried to and fro, to the beginning and never reaching an end, because we as people need your Word through and through. God I ask you to touch hearts, to touch minds, and to touch the spiritual man in people, and that you give us a heart after you God. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.
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